From Emma... This last week ended with a return from Washington. We were welcomed with bills, a driving infraction, and a denial for insurance. Needless to say, less than stellar. The clincher was day before yesterday when we found out that our car (from the 90's) can't accomodate a toddler carseat because of the outdated seatbelt technology which is problematic since our son just grew out of the newborn one. So after many, many, MANY, conversations with quite a few people saying the same thing, "it can't be done," the solution was simple...call my mom and cry. Emotional breakdown: Check. Side note: This morning we took our son to his pediatrician. He left having had multiple shots and a toe poke. Story cont.: Today after talking to another person at Baby's R Us we went to the dealership and found out that they can install what are called anchors in your car. There is a fee but it's exponentially cheaper than buying a vehicle. I made the appointment for installation. This evening I took our son on a walk. We came home and played piano. Then I picked him up and wrapped a blanket around him, letting him snuggle into my chest. As we rocked in the rocking chair I sang song after song until his eyelids slowly closed and I could feel the motion of his body as he breathed. Looking at him I was reminded how precious it all is, how fragile. How much negative emotion did I waste on all these stupid things? We are so very blessed. And though I spoke with a number of people who told me it was unlikely, it only took one to direct me to a solution. All the frustration and worry in the world can't get me anywhere. But behind faith, gratitude, and love, we find exactly what we need. I have faith it will all work out, because it always does in one way or another. This story is just one example of countless. I am grateful for the privilege of singing my sweet boy to sleep in a comfortable home where we can pay all the bills. We can take care of the infraction. I called and got insurance squared away. It turns out we were missing a form, for which I'm grateful. And I'm grateful for the people that helped me toward a solution with our car. I love this life. It's those little wonders that make it living. How rich life can be when we keep our eyes open to it. Everything is inexplicably interwoven and comprises the joy of living. It's okay to cry...for a little while. But if we keep our eyes closed for too long we miss the greatness of taking a breath and saying, "Okay, it's time to put my big girl panties on." You can't wear pull-ups forever. And who would want to?! Gross. Appreciate it. That's what I learned this week. Appreciate every minute. Music is a big part of my life and it speaks to me in a way that words can't. I hope this song gives you the peace and clarity that it does me. If you're having a hard time, know you have a friend in me. It's all going to be okay. Take a minute. Breathe. And look around you to notice all the little wonders.
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